– Sri. K. P. Sankunni Nair (1961)
Prostration at the feet of Mother. I am prompted to write on how I became a disciple of Mother. My mind was very much dejected for I was not successful in my efforts for getting admission into the order of sanyasa at Rishikesh. I was thinking of going to Trivandrum, or Kanhangad, to join one of the Ashramas there. It was then that I got a book, the author of which is Mrs. T. N. K. Nair. The name of the book is “From Darkness Unto Light”. From that book, I came to know, the author’s personal experiences about Mother Sree Sadguru Rama Devi. That book brought light to my mind. I made up my mind to see Mother. The then Agent, of Jayalaxmi Bank, Mr. M. S. Rao, instructed me to go to Mangalore, to see Mother. I had my first darsan of Mother at Mangalore, on the 5th March 1954. I saw her majestic figure. When I first saw her, I thought I was having darsan of Raja Rajeswari, to whom I used to perform pooja everyday. When I prostrated at her lotus feet, she touched me on my head. I am unable to describe what I felt then. I felt that I was not on earth. After some time, I was asked to get up. I have read in the Holy Bible that when a man went to Jesus and when Jesus touched him, there was a sudden change in him. I felt as such, when Mother touched me. She asked me, whether, I was performing “Sree Chakra Pooja”. I said yes. Then she asked me, whether I had been to Rishikesh, to become a sanyasi. To this also, I replied in the affirmative. She explained to me, that one can have Atmanubhooti, even as a householder. I was very much enlightened, on hearing this from Mother. I requested Mother to initiate me, and take me as one of her disciples. Mother was pleased. Accordingly, I was initiated, the next day on 6th December 1954. That day was Guruvayoor Ekadashi, and Mother served me with prasadam. She took me to the meditation room and within half or one hour, the initiation ceremony was over. The significance of that occasion cannot be explained in words. When that was over, I became a refreshed man. My mind became very calm. From that day onwards, I have been doing Japa and meditation, with great zeal and find that the bliss and ecstasy I enjoy is indescribable. Such are the powers of Mother. On the day of my initiation, there was a bhajan in Mangalore bhajan hall. That day, Mother came up suddenly, from the ground-floor, and told the devotees, that she was going to give discourse in Malayalam, because I happened to be the only Malayalee there. I told Mother that I can understand their language and the discourse could be delivered in their own language. But, Mother insisted, and spoke in Malayalam. To my utter surprise, I later on learnt that everyone of those present, were able to understand all that Mother spoke, in Malayalam. Mother is very kind and good-natured. I have never requested her to save me from any of the worldly affairs and I am not willing to do so. Mother knows what I am in need of, and I know that I will have it by her grace, at the appropriate time. I have surrendered everything to Mother.
Complete self-surrender to Mother and following her instructions to the very word will enable one realize oneself. Mother initiates into the method of meditation (Dhyanam); enjoins the performance of nama japa; and gives instructions upon conduct. The teaching of Mother extols Pathivratha dharma for women. The wife should regard her husband as God.
Mother I believe is an incarnation of Parashakthi.