– Sri N.V.Katti, B.A., B.T.
That our bodies are only a clothing to our souls, and our souls though apparently different, are intrinsically one and the same indivisible Brahman, was one of our experiences at the feet of Mother. When we saw Mother and talked to her, we did not feel we had not seen her before. We felt as if an age-long contact had already existed between us. Mother talked to us as our mothers who gave us births would talk after our long absence from them. “ My children have come from a distance of a thousand miles!” still rings in our ears ; our hearts got mellowed, and the eyes got wet.
We stood before her to get her blessings. We had nothing to offer. We were almost empty-handed. The very emptiness possessed us so much that we felt happy that we had nothing. What does Mother want from us, when she is the embodiment of everything, movable and immovable? When many waited outside for her darsan we had the pleasure of being closeted with her for a long time, and blessed in a special way. But this is only our interpretation. What actually happened was exactly what should have ; and we had the satisfaction that we were on the right path that brought us to the feet of Mother.
One of the six-because we were six in number, was given the special privilege of translating an inspired writing of Mother in the English language. He felt almost exhausted in rendering the same into intelligible Kannada. It was rather surprising to see that the language was so unusually technical and the thoughts metaphysical that his brain failed to grasp the hidden truth in it. But all the while, he was proud of being given a work of worship and his Kannada rendering of the Mother’s writing, though completed, left him vanquished. This is a clear proof that Mother’s thoughts and language are those of the Atman and they do not require to be fabricated into speech.
What does Mother want from us? She wants no money, no presents, no material things. She wants that we should have nothing ours as such. To have anything as our own is to have a feeling of possession, mamkar, and that is bondage. She wants that we should hand over ourselves to her that she may take care of us. Her repeated demands from us were that we should give up anger, that we should give up ahankaar.
Having drunk deep at the fountain-head of Mother’s love and wisdom, we left Mangalore. But we could not leave Mother! She followed us, and she has not left us ever since.
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